The New Me

5/22/17      A true story      The girl looked down at her phone. She had one message waiting for her in her inbox. "We have to talk," it said, and that was all. No other explanations. She set her phone down on the counter, wondering to herself what it could be. She had a weird feeling that it would not be something good. Her heart did a somersault in her chest. Somehow in her heart, she knew it was over.      The next day, he came over to her house. Her parents were out of town on vacation, and she was the only one home. They sat outside on the porch swing, their legs dangling side by side. He sat as far away from her on the swing as he could, not making eye contact. "What is it?" she asked him, her heart racing.      "I don't think I can be with you anymore," he said, and slowly turned his head to look at her. She looked into his bright eyes, seeing nothing. Not love, not compassion, not an o...

5/21/17           The last thing I would ever want to do is speak for other women when not every single one of us go through all the same problems. Every woman is unique in her own way, and with that comes different adversity. But I have been hearing a lot lately, and well, my entire life, that women have it so easy and we do nothing to contribute to society. And that's just bullshit; and it's just not my opinion. It's a fact. Women work harder just struggling to be themselves every day than any man works at any job. I'm not saying that men don't struggle with these same things...but it's different. I know I only have 22 years of experience being a female, but in these 22 years I have gone through so many emotions and struggles and I know that almost all other women have as well. Today I woke up early in the morning, feeling refreshed, happy, and awake. Tomorrow I will probably wake up and want to strangle the first person I see. We as wom...

5/18/17      Good evening. I realize it's been a week since I've posted anything, and I'm truly sorry. I'm kind of angry at myself that I haven't been able to keep my promise to myself of writing something every day. I've been sick and couldn't focus on anything, I don't know where my head's been at lately. So tonight what I'm going to do is sit here and just write exactly what is on my mind. Something I've been noticing most recently is the way things change over time. It's not always a big chance, not always something significant that is obvious to the eye. Just a shift in mood, a shift in seasons, weather, vibes, whatever you want to call it. Have you ever moved away or gone on a vacation and come back and everything is different somehow? The atmosphere is different; a house has been painted a different color, someone has moved away, a sign has been taken down, a new store has been opened.      Lately I've been driving a...

5/11/17       Ever since I was young, I've had a dream of teaching art to kids. As I grew older, I adapted that dream into having my own kids and doing art with them, and teaching them everything I know. Dreams of the future and all the things I want to be doing, the family I want to have, and the job I want to be doing are what help me get through every tough time I have. Today I asked everyone what their dream occupation is. A whopping 41 people responded. That was the best turnout I've gotten so far! I really love the responses I got. There were so many different occupations mentioned, and some of them I already knew about those people, but I was completely surprised by others. I'm not even going to separate them into categories, because there was such a wide range.      The first answer I received was from a good friend of mine, who said she'd love to have and run her own farm and live in a remote part of New Hampshi...

5/10/17      We all have things about ourselves we wish we could change. Among those things are these nasty things we have called bad habits. No matter what the habit is, the common denominator is that they are all bad, whether they are bad for our health, the environment, or society itself. The very definition of a bad habit is " a negative behavioral pattern ." Most of the time, the thing that makes it a "bad habit" is that other people hate when you do it. No matter where you go, your habits will bother someone, and there's no doubt that they will let you know it. I know that bad habits are hard to kick, and I've had my fair share of them.  I don't care who you are, everyone has some kind of habit, whether they know it or not. Tonight I asked what some other people's bad habits are.      Nail biting. This is probably the most common one, and it was the first response I received. It's also my worst bad habit. I'll ...

5/9/17      Have you ever been so deeply terrified of something that it gives you the creepy-crawly heebie-jeebies whenever you even think about it? A lot of these fears come from experiences, but most of them, I feel, come from just watching it on TV or reading about it. The definition of an irrational fear, or phobia, is "a type of anxiety disorder that describes an excessive and irrational fear of a specific object, activity or situation." Some of these fears are mild and easier to ignore or get over, whereas others cripple your ability to function normally in your daily life. I took to Facebook tonight, and asked an open question: What are some of your irrational fears that you wish you could get over? The results were truly amazing. I had over 30 answers from friends, family, classmates co-workers, people that I hadn't talked to in months or years, people that I talk to every day. Many of the answers were things that I have been afraid of for my...

5/7/17      I decided to do this questionnaire post, it's called "Questions to Deepen the Connection." It's questions that you should ask your partner to get to know each other better. I just thought I'd do a fun kind of post, and maybe you guys will use it with your partners as well. 1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?      Honestly I think at this point in my life I would say Snoop Dogg. I don't think I really need to explain why. Everyone knows it would be awesome, and if you say it wouldn't be, you're lying to yourself.      2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?      Probably for my art, or something that I created/invented 3. Before making a phone call, do you ever rehearse what you’re going to say? Why?      If it's an important phone call, I always either rehearse or write down what I'm going to say, just s...